Come, Holy Spirit. Enkindle in our hearts, the fire of Your Divine Love.



Blessed Mother Mary, Queen of Carmel,

protect and pray for us.



Thursday, October 7, 2010

Chapter 25 - The Life of Teresa of Jesus - Autobiography of St. Teresa of Avila




  The Life of Holy Mother
        Teresa of Jesus


  The Life of St. Teresa of Jesus,
of the Order of Our Lady of Carmel.


       CHAPTER 25


- Of the manner in which Locutions of God 
    are perceived by the soul 
  without being actually heard; 


- and of some deceits 
   that might take place in this matter, 


- and how one is to know which is which. 
 This is most profitable for those who are 
   in this degree of prayer, 
  because it is very well explained,
   and contains excellent doctrine.


- Divine Locutions. 
- Discussions on That Subject.


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Topics/ Questions
to keep in mind
as we read along:


1). How does St. Teresa describe 
        locutions of God?
         [ Life: Ch25: # 2,5,6,8,9,
                                    12,22,23 ]


2) From where can locutions arise?
        [ Life: Ch25: #1,2,3  ]




3). How does St. Teresa describe a
       human or natural  locution?
         [ Life: Ch25: # 3,4,5,6,8,10,11,12  ]


4). How does St. Teresa describe a
        locution from satan?
         [ Life: Ch25:  #13,14,15, 17]




5). What encouragement does 
         St. Teresa give regarding
           locutions from satan?
              [ Life: Ch25:  # 16,24,25,26,27 ]


6). What recommendations  
           and precautions does 
       St. Teresa give regarding
           locutions from satan?
              [Life: Ch25: #16,17,18,23,24,26]


7). "There is another test 
            more decisive still" for   
       distinguishing between 
       divine locutions and human locutions.
       What does St. Teresa say is this test?
 .         [ Life: Ch25: # 5]




8).  According to St. Teresa, 
     If God did "subject those 
     who love (Him) to a severe trial,
    why would this be done?
       [ Life: Ch25:  # 22 ]


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     Chapter  25


1. It will be as well, I think, 
    - to explain these locutions of God, and 
    - to describe what the soul feels 
         when it receives them, 
  in order that you, my father, 
     may understand the matter; 


  for ever since that time 
      of which I am speaking, 
   when our Lord granted me that grace, 
      it has been an ordinary occurrence 
    until now, 
      as will appear by what I have yet to say. 
                                                              [357]


2. The words 
        - are very distinctly formed; 
        - but by the bodily ear 
               they are not heard. 


     They are, however, 
        - much more clearly understood 
            than they would be 
          if  they were heard by the ear. 


        - It is impossible 
                 not to understand them,
             whatever resistance we may offer. 


    When we wish not to hear anything 
            in this world, 
                we can 
                     stop our ears, or 
                     give attention to something else:
        so that,
             even if we do hear, 
               at least we can refuse to understand. 




In this locution of God 
    addressed to the soul
           there is no escape, 
    for in spite of ourselves
           we must listen; 


   and the understanding must apply itself 
      so thoroughly to the comprehension 
    of that which God wills we should hear,

    that it is nothing to the purpose 
       whether we will it or not; 


    for it is His will, 
        Who can do all things. 


   We should understand that
         - His will must be done; and 
         - He reveals Himself as our true Lord, 
                having dominion over us. 


         I know this by much experience; 
          for my resistance lasted 
                 nearly two years, [358] 
          because of the great fear I was in: 


          and even now I resist occasionally; 
                  but it is of  no use.


3. I should like to explain the delusions 
         which may happen here, 


     though he who has had much experience  
          will run little or no risk, I think; 
     but the experience must be great. 


I should like to explain also 
   - how those locutions
               which come from the Good Spirit 
        differ from those 
               which come from an evil spirit; 
         and, further, 


   - how they may be 
          -- but an apprehension 
                    of the  understanding, 
                for that is possible, or 
          -- even words which the mind 
                     addressed to itself. 


   I do not know if it be so 
        but even this very day 
     I thought it  possible. 




I know by experience in many ways, 
      when these locutions 
  come from  God. 


I have been told things 
       two or three years beforehand, 
which have all  come to pass; 


and in none of them 
       have I been hitherto deceived. 


There are also other things 
      in which the Spirit of God 
  may be clearly traced, 
      as I shall relate by and by. [359]




4. It seems to me 
that a person commending 
             a matter to God 
      with great love  and earnestness 
   may think that he hears 
      in some way or other 
   whether his prayer will be granted or not,   
      and this is quite possible;




 but he who has heard the divine locution   
      will see clearly enough what this is,
   because there is a great difference 
       between the two. 


If it be anything 
    which the understanding has fashioned,  
                  however cunningly 
                  it may have done so, 
   he sees 
      - that it is the understanding 
                  which has arranged that locution, and 
      - that it is speaking of itself. 


        This is nothing else 
           but a word 
                   uttered by one, and
                   listened to by another: 


        in that case, 
            the understanding will see 
                 that it has not been listening only, 
                  but also forming the words; 


                  and the words it forms are
                       something indistinct, 
                       fantastic, and 
                       not clear 
                  like the divine locutions. 


              It is in our power 
                  to turn away our attention 
                    from these locutions of our own, 
               just as we can be silent 
                    when we are speaking; 




   but, with respect to the former, 
        that cannot be done.


5. There is another test more decisive still. 


The words formed by the understanding
      effect nothing


but, when our Lord speaks, 
   - it is at once word and work


and though the words 
     may not be meant to stir up our devotion, 
     but are rather words of reproof, they
     - dispose a soul at once, 
     - strengthen it,
     - make it tender, 
     - give it light, 
     - console and calm it; 


and if it should be 
            in dryness, or 
            in trouble and uneasiness, 
     - all is removed, 
            as if by the action of a hand, 
       and even better; 


for it seems as if our Lord 
   would have the soul understand 
   - that He is all-powerful, and 
   - that His words are deeds.


6. It seems to me that 
  there is as much difference 
          between these two locutions 
     as there is 
          between speaking and listening, 
     neither more nor less;


    for when I speak, 
         as I have just said, [360] 
    I go on with my understanding
         arranging what I am saying; 
    but if I am spoken to by others, 
         I do nothing else but listen, 
    without any labour. 


The human locution is as something
     which we cannot well make out, 
 as if we were half asleep; 


but the divine locution is a voice 
 - so clear 
      that not a syllable of its utterance is lost.


It may occur, too, 
      when the understanding and the soul are
           so troubled and distracted 
       that they cannot form 
           one sentence correctly;  
 - and yet grand sentences, 
                      perfectly arranged, 
                such as the soul in 
                     its most recollected state 
                 never could have formed, 
          are uttered, 


 - and at the first word, as I said, [361] 
            change it utterly


Still less could it have formed them 
  if they are uttered in an ecstasy, 
                 when the faculties of the soul 
                            are suspended; 


                  for how should the soul then 
                            comprehend anything, 
                  when it remembers nothing?


                   yea, rather, 
                   how can it remember them then,
                            when the memory 
                   can hardly do anything at all, 


                   and the imagination is, 
                              as it were, suspended?




7. But it is to be observed, 
       that if we 
                 see visions and 
                 hear words 
     it never is as at the time 
        when the soul is in union 
                 in the very rapture itself,
         so it seems to me. 


At that moment, 
              as I have shown,
   I think it was when I was speaking 
             of the second water, [362]  
      all the faculties of the soul 
                are suspended; 
      (Actually it was the 3rd water
         See footnote #362 below. )


and, as I think, 
      . neither vision, 
      . nor understanding, 
      . nor hearing, 
   is possible at that time. 


The soul is then wholly 
        in the power of another;
   and in that instant,
        a very brief one, in my opinion,
               our Lord leaves it free
               for nothing whatever; 


but when this instant is passed, 
    the soul continuing still entranced, 
then is the time of which I am speaking; 


   for the faculties,
       though not completely suspended, 
      are so disposed 
   that they are scarcely active,
       being, as it were, 
             absorbed, and 
             incapable of making any reflections.


8. There are so many ways of ascertaining 
          the nature of these locutions,
    that if a person be once deceived, 
          he will not be deceived often. 


   I mean,
      that a soul accustomed to them, 
          and on its guard, 
      will most clearly see what they are;  


 for, setting other considerations aside
       which prove what I have said, 
    - the human locution 
             produces no effect, 
    - neither does the soul accept it,
             though it must admit the other, 
             whether we like it or not,
     - nor does it believe it; 


     On the contrary, 
     - it is known to be a delusion 
             of the understanding, and 
     - is therefore put away 
             as we would put away 
             the ravings of a lunatic.


9. But as to the divine locution
 - we listen to that 
      as we do to a person of
                great holiness, 
                learning, or 
                authority, 
         whom we know to be 
                incapable of uttering a falsehood. 


     And yet this is an inadequate illustration;
     for these locutions proceed occasionally 
         -- in such great majesty 
               that, without our recollecting 
                   who it is that utters them, 
             they make us 
             --- tremble 
                    if they be words of reproof, and
             --- die of love 
                    if words of love. 


  They are also, as I have said, [363]   
      matters of which 
   - the memory 
           has not the least recollection ;  and
   - expressions 
           so full 
           are uttered so rapidly, 
             that much time must have been spent 
                 in arranging them,
           if we formed them ourselves; 


       and so it seems to me
           that we cannot possibly be ignorant 
                 at the time 
           that we have never formed, 
                 ourselves, at all.


10. There is no reason, therefore, 
       why I should dwell longer on this matter.


It is a wonder to me 
    that any experienced person, 
        unless he deliberately chooses to do so, 
    can fall into delusions. 


It has often happened to me, 
       when I had doubts, 
    to distrust what I had heard, and 
    to think that it was all imagination,


         but this I did afterwards: 


   for at the moment 
     that is impossible,


    and at a later time 
         to see the whole fulfilled; 


for our Lord makes the words 
    dwell in the memory 
         so that they cannot be forgotten. 


Now, that which comes forth 
     from our understanding is, 
                 as it were,
     the first movement of thought, 
         which passes away and
          is forgotten; 


     but the divine locution 
          is a work done

     and though some of it may be forgotten, 
     and time have lapsed, 
        yet is not so wholly forgotten
              that the memory loses all traces
              of what was once spoken,


         unless, indeed, after very long time, or 
         unless the locution were words 
                of grace or 
                of instruction. 


     But as to prophetic words,
         they are never forgotten, 
             in my opinion; at least, 
         I have never forgotten any, and 
         yet my memory is weak.


11. I repeat it, 
      unless a soul be so wicked 
          as to pretend 
            - that it has these locutions, 
                  which would be a great sin, 
         - say that it hears divine words
                  when it hears nothing of the kind, 
     it cannot possibly fail to see clearly
       that itself 
            arranges the words, and 
             utters them to itself. 


      That seems to me 
            altogether impossible  
        for any soul 
            that has ever known 
                     the Spirit of God. 


            If it has not,  it may 
                continue all its life long 
                     in this delusion, and 
                imagine that it 
                     hears and 
                     understands,
                though I know not how that can be.


 A soul desires to hear these locutions, 
        or it does not; 


    - if it does not (desire to hear locutions), it
          is distressed because it hears them, and
          is unwilling to listen to them,
       because 
              of a thousand fears 
                     which they occasion, and 
               for many other reasons it has 
                      for being quiet in prayer 
                  without these interruptions. 


        How is it that the understanding 
              has time enough 
                   to arrange these locutions? 
              They require time.


12. But, on the other side, 
     the divine locutions 
      - instruct us without loss of time, and 


      - we understand matters 
            which seem to require a month 
                on our part to arrange. 


      - The understanding itself, and the soul, 
          stand amazed at some of the things 
                we understand. 




So it is; 
    and he 
          who has any experience of it 
    will see that what I am saying 
          is literally true.


I give God thanks 
  that I have been able thus to explain it.




I end by saying 
     that, in my opinion, 
  we may 
      hear the locutions 
          that proceed from the understanding 
                  whenever we like, and
      think that we hear them 
                  whenever we pray


  But it is not so with the divine locutions
    for many days I may desire to hear them, 
            and I cannot; and 


    at other times,  as I said before, [364] 
        even when I would not hear them,
                   (don't want to hear them )
             I must. 




It seems to me 
    that any one disposed to deceive people 
        by saying that he heard from God 
               that which he has invented himself, 
        might as easily say
               that he heard it with his bodily ears. 




It is most certainly true 
   that I never imagined 
        there was any other way 
              of hearing or 
              of understanding 
         till I had proof of it in myself; 


    and so, as I have said before, [365] 
         it gave me trouble enough.




13. Locutions that come from Satan 
-  not only do not leave 
          any good effects behind, 
- but do leave evil effects


This has happened to me; 
   but not more than two or three times. 


  Our Lord warned me at once 
         that they came from Satan. 


         Over and above 
            -- the great aridity 
                     which remains in the soul 
                   after these evil locutions, 
           -- there is also a certain disquiet
                   such as I have had
                     on many other occasions, 
               when, by our Lord's permission, 
                  I fell into 
                     great temptations and 
                     travail of soul in diverse ways; 


            and though I am in trouble
                     often enough, 
                     as I shall show hereafter, [366] 
            yet this disquiet is such
                 that I know not whence it comes; 
            only the soul 
                 seems to resist, 
                 is troubled and distressed, 
                      without knowing why; 


            for the words of Satan 
                are good, 
                and not evil. 


            I am thinking whether 
                 this may not be so because 
            one spirit is conscious 
                of the presence of another.




14. The sweetness and joy 
          which Satan gives 
                are, in my opinion, 
          of a very different kind


      By means of these sweetnesses 
          he may deceive any one 
             who does not, or 
             who never did, 
                    taste of the sweetness of God,


             by which I mean a certain 
                  sweet, strong, impressive, 
                  delightsome, and calm refreshing. 


     Those little, fervid bursts of tears, 
           and other slight emotions,
        for at the first breath of persecution 
           these flowers wither


        I do not call devotion, 
            though they 
               are a good beginning, and 
               are holy impressions; 


        but they are not a test
            to determine whether these locutions 
               come from 
                    a good or 
                    an evil spirit. 


It is therefore best for us 
        to proceed always 
     with great caution; 


for those persons 
     who have advanced in prayer
                only so far as this 
           may most easily fall into delusions, 
     if they have visions or revelations.


     For myself, 
         I never had a single vision or revelation 
     till God had led me on 
         to the prayer of union,


        unless it be on that occasion, 
           of which I have spoken before, [367]
        now many years ago, 
          when I saw our Lord. 


          Oh, that His Majesty 
               had been pleased 
           to let me then understand 
               that it was a true vision, 
           as I have since understood it was! 


           it would have been 
                no slight blessing to me.




15. After these locutions of the evil one, 
   the soul is
              never gentle, 
         but is,   as it were, 
              terrified, and greatly disgusted.




16. I look upon it 
as a most certain truth, 
       - that the devil will never deceive, and 
       - that God will not suffer him 
                    to deceive,
    the soul 
          which has no confidence 
                whatever in itself
          which is strong in faith, and
          which is resolved to undergo 
                a thousand deaths 
                     for any one article of the creed; 
          which, in its love of the faith, 
               infused of God once for all,  
                   a faith living and strong,
                      always labours, 
                         seeking for further light 
                      on this side and on that,
                         to mould itself 
                     on the teaching of the Church, 
                     as one already deeply grounded 
                         in the truth. 


           No imaginable revelations, 
           not even if it saw the heavens open, 
                 could make that soul swerve 
                           in any degree 
           from the doctrine of the Church. 


    If, however, 
           it should at any time find itself 
                    wavering even in thought 
                             on this point, or
                    stopping to say to itself, 
                      "If God says this to me,
                            it may be true, 
                        as well as 
                            what He said to the Saints",
          the soul must not be sure of it. 


          I do not mean 
                    that it so believes, 
          only that Satan has taken the first step 
                    towards tempting it; 


          and the giving way 
                    to the first movements of  a thought 
                         like this 
                    is evidently most wrong.


 I believe, however, 
      that these first movements 
          will not take place 
      if the soul is so strong in the matter
          as that soul is
             to whom our Lord sends these graces 
   that it seems as if it could crush 
          the evil spirits in defence 
     of the very least of the truths 
           which the Church holds.


17. If the soul does not discern 
              this great strength in itself, and 
       if the particular devotion or vision 
              help it not onwards, 
          then it must not look upon it as safe


For though at first 
      the soul is conscious of no harm, 
   great harm may by degrees ensue; 


 because, so far as I can see, and 
               by experience understand, 
          that which purports to come from God 
    is received only in so far
          as it corresponds 
               with the sacred writings


         but if it varies therefrom ever so little,
                I am incomparably more convinced 
         that it comes from Satan 
                      than I am now convinced 
                it comes from God, 
                       however deep 
                       that conviction may be. 


     In this case, there is 
           no need to ask for signs, 
           nor from what spirit it proceeds,    
     because this varying is so clear a sign 
           of the devil's presence,


      that if all the world were to assure me 
          that it came from God, 
      I would not believe it.


 The fact is, that 
    - all good seems 
          to be lost out of sight, and 
          to have fled from the soul, 
       when the devil has spoken to it; 


    the soul 
    - is thrown into a state of disgust, and 
    - is troubled, 
    - able to do no good thing whatever
            -- for if it conceives good desires, 
              (but) they are not strong; 


     - its humility is 
                fictitious, 
                disturbed, and 
                without sweetness. 


  Any one 
        who has ever tasted of the Spirit of God
     will, I think, understand it.




18. Nevertheless, 
   Satan has many devices; 
   and so there is nothing 
        more certain than that 
     it is safer to 
              - be afraid, and 
              - always on our guard, 
               - under a learned director, 
                   from whom nothing is concealed.


    If we do this, 
        no harm can befall us, 
            though much has befallen me 
        through the excessive fears 
           which possessed some people. 


   For instance,
      it happened so once to me, 
   when many persons 
       in whom I had great confidence, 
             and with good reason, 
          had assembled together, 
             five or six in number, I think,
             and all very great servants of God. 


           It is true, my relations were 
               with one of them only; 
            but by his orders 
                made my state known to the others. 


            They had many conferences together 
                about my necessities; 


            for they had great affection for me, 
                   and were afraid I was
                           under a delusion. 


            I, too, was very much afraid 
                   whenever I was 
                not occupied in prayer; 


            but when 
                        I prayed, and 
                        our Lord bestowed His graces 
                                 upon me, 
                             I was instantly reassured. 


      My confessor told me 
                      they were all of opinion 
           that I was deceived by Satan; 
           that I must 
                communicate less frequently, and
                contrive to distract myself 
                    in such a way as to be less alone.




19. I was in great fear myself, 
           as I have just said, and 
     my disease of the heart [368] 
            contributed thereto, 
        so that very often I did not dare 
            to remain alone in my cell 
                    during the day. 


When I found so many (persons) 
                    maintain this, 
        and myself unable to believe them, 
     I had at once a most grievous scruple; 
        for it seemed to me 
         - that I had very little humility, 
                    especially as they all led lives 
                    incomparably better than mine: 
         - they were also learned men. 


    Why should I not believe them?


     I did all I could to believe them. 


     I reflected on my wicked life, 
     therefore what they said to me 
             must be true.




20. In this distress, I 
         quitted the church, [369] and 
         entered an oratory. 


    I had not been to Communion 
           for many days, 
       nor had I been alone, 
           which was all my comfort. 


    I had no one to speak to, 
       for every one was against me. 


    Some, I thought, made a mock of me 
           when I spoke to them of my prayer, 
      as if I were a person 
            under delusions of the imagination; 


      others warned my confessor 
             to be on his guard against me; 


      and some said it was clear 
             the whole was an operation of Satan.


  My confessor, 
                 though he agreed with them 
                 for the sake of trying me, 
                      as I understood afterwards,   
          always comforted me: 
          and he alone did so. 


   - He told me that, 
                if I did not offend God, 
          my prayer, 
              even if it was the work of Satan, 
               -- could do me no harm;
               -- that I should be delivered from it.


    - He bade me pray much to God: 
          he himself, and all his penitents, 
          and many others
                  did so earnestly; 


          I, too, with all my might, and 
                 as many as I knew 
                     to be servants of God, 
             prayed that His Majesty 
                 would be pleased to lead me 
                     by another way. 


          This lasted, 
                I think, about two years; and 
           this was the subject
                of my continual prayer to our Lord.




21. But there was no comfort for me 
            when I thought of the possibility 
         that Satan could speak to me so often. 


   Now that I was never alone for prayer, 
     our Lord made me recollected 
           even during conversation: 


     He spoke what He (God) pleased,
           I could not avoid it; and, 
      though it distressed me, 
           I was forced to listen. 


      I was by myself, 
         - having no one 
              in whom I could find any comfort;
         - unable to pray or read, 
              like a person stunned 
                  by heavy trials, and 
                  by the dread that the evil one 
                        had deluded me; 
         - utterly disquieted and wearied, 
         - not knowing what would become 
                   of me. 


         I have been occasionally yea, 
           very often in distress, 
         but never before in distress so great. 


         I was in this state for four or five hours;
         there was no comfort for me, 
               either from heaven or on earth
            only our Lord left me to suffer, 
               afraid of a thousand dangers.




22. O my Lord, 
    how true a friend art Thou! 
    how powerful! 
Thou showest Thy power 
     when Thou wilt;    
and Thou dost will it always, 
     if only we will it also.


Let the whole creation praise Thee, 
O Thou Lord of the world! 


Oh, that a voice might go forth 
          over all the earth, 
    proclaiming Thy faithfulness 
          to those who love Thee! 


All things fail; 
   but Thou, Lord of all, never failest!


They who love Thee, 
    oh, how little they have to suffer! 


    oh, how gently, 
          how tenderly, 
          how sweetly Thou, 
    O my Lord, dealest with them! 


    Oh, that no one had ever been occupied 
          with any other love than Thine! 


It seems 
    as if Thou didst subject those 
              who love Thee 
        to a severe trial: 
  
    but it is in order 
              that they may learn
    in the depths of that trial, 
              the depths of Thy love


O my God, oh, 
     that I had 
               understanding and
               learning, and a
               new language, 
       in order to magnify Thy works,   
           according to the knowledge of them 
               which my soul possesses! 


Everything fails me, O my Lord; 
  but if Thou wilt not abandon me,
      I will never fail Thee. 


   Let all the learned rise up against me,
   let the whole creation persecute me,
   let the evil spirits torment me,
       but do Thou, O Lord, fail me not; 




  for I know 
             by experience now 
       the blessedness of that deliverance 
             which Thou dost effect 
      for those who trust only in Thee. 


      In this distress,  
         for then I had never had a single vision, 
      these Thy words alone  were enough to 
                   remove it, and 
                   give me perfect peace:



"Be not afraid, my daughter
     it is I; 
  and I will not abandon thee. 
     Fear not." [370]




23. It seems to me 
             that, in the state I was in then, 
        many hours would have been necessary 
             to calm me, and 
        that no one could have done it. 


    Yet I found myself, 
               through these words alone,
        tranquil and strong, 
        courageous and confident, 
        at rest and enlightened; 


in a moment, 
   - my soul seemed changed, and
   - I felt I could maintain 
             against all the world 
       that my prayer was the work of God. 


Oh, how good is God! 
       how good is our Lord, and 
       how powerful! 


He gives 
      not counsel only, 
      but relief as well. 


His words are deeds. O my God! 


 As He strengthens our faith
             love grows


       So it is, in truth; 
        for I used frequently to recollect 
            how our Lord, 
                    when the tempest arose, 
              commanded the winds to be still 
                     over the sea. [371] 


        So I said to myself: 
          "Who is He, 
                   that all my faculties should
                           thus obey Him? 


            Who is He, 
                   that gives light in such darkness
                           in a moment; 


             who softens a heart 
                   that seemed to be made of stone


             who gives the waters of sweet tears,
                where for a long time great dryness
                          seems to have prevailed; 


             who inspires these desires; 
             who bestows this courage? 
             What have I been thinking of? 
             what am I afraid of? 
              what is it?


     I desire to serve this my Lord; 


     I aim at nothing else 
          but His pleasure


     I seek 
          no joy, 
          no rest, 
          no other good than 
                  that of doing His will


      I was so confident
          that I had no other desire, 
          that I could safely assert it.




24. Seeing, then,
            that our Lord is so powerful,
                   as I see and know He is, and 
             that the evil spirits are His slaves, 
                  of which there can be no doubt,  
       because 
             it is of faith, and 
             I,  a servant of this our Lord 
                  and King,
          what harm can Satan do unto me? 


       Why have I not strength enough 
             to fight against all hell? 


       I took up the cross in my hand,
           I was changed in a moment 
                  into another person


       and it seemed 
                   as if God had really given me
             courage enough not to be afraid 
                  of encountering all the evil spirits. 


       It seemed to me that I could, 
             with the cross
          easily defeat them altogether. 


       So I cried out, 
          "Come on, all of you; 
            I am the servant of our Lord
            I should like to see 
                what you can do against me?"




25. And certainly they seemed
     to be afraid of me, 
  for I was left in peace: 


     I feared them so little, 
         that the terrors, 
                  which until now oppressed me,
             quitted me altogether; 


    and though I saw them occasionally,
        I shall speak of this by and by, [372] 
    I was never again afraid of them


    
   on the contrary,
       they seemed to be afraid of me. [373] 




      I found myself endowed 
             with a certain authority over them, 
         given me by the Lord of all, 
             so that I cared no more for them 
                         than for flies. 


       They seem to be such cowards; 
              for their strength fails them 
        at the sight of any one 
              who despises them. 


        These enemies have not the courage 
               to assail any 
          but those whom they see 
               ready to give in to them,
          or when God permits them to do so,    
               for the greater good of His servants,
          whom they may try and torment.




26. May it please His Majesty that we 
  - fear Him whom 
       we ought to fear,[374] and 
  - understand that one venial sin 
       can do us more harm 
          than all hell together; 
       for that is the truth. 


      -- The evil spirits keep us in terror, 
          because we expose ourselves
               to the assaults of terror 
          by our attachments to 
                  honours,
                  possessions, and 
                  pleasures. 

      -- For then the evil spirits, 
                uniting themselves with us,
          □ we become our own enemies 
                when we love and seek 
                       what we ought to hate,
          □ do us great harm. 
    


  We ourselves put weapons 
       into their hands
   that they may assail us; 
       those very weapons 
   with which we should defend ourselves. 


   It is a great pity. 


  But if, for the love of God, we
        - hated all this, and
        - embraced the cross, and 
        - set about His service in earnest, 
    Satan would fly away before such realities,
           as from the plague. 


    He is the friend of lies, 
           and a lie himself. [375] 


    He will have nothing to do 
         with those who walk in the truth


     When he sees the understanding 
         of any one obscured, 
       he simply helps to pluck out his eyes; 


       if he sees any one already blind
             seeking peace in vanities,


                   for all the things of this world 
                        are so utterly vanity, 
                   that they seem to be
                        but the playthings of a child,
  
             he sees at once 
                 that such a one is a child; 
             he treats him as a child, and 
                 ventures to wrestle with him   
              not once, but often.




27. May it please our Lord 
          that I be not one of these; and
      may His Majesty give me grace 
         to take 
                that for peace 
                         which is really peace, 
                 that for honour
                         which is really honour, and 
                 that for delight 
                         which is really a delight. 


Let me 
      never mistake one thing for another and 
      then I snap my fingers at all the devils, 
        for they shall be afraid of me. 


I do not understand those terrors
     which make us cry out, Satan, Satan! 
 when we may say, God, God! 
      and make Satan tremble. 


Do we not know 
         that he cannot stir 
     without the permission of God? 


What does it mean? 


I am really much more afraid 
        of those people 
who have so great a fear of the devil, 
        than I am of the devil himself. 


Satan can do me no harm whatever, 
        but they can trouble me very much, 
particularly if they be confessors. 


I have spent some years 
        of such great anxiety, 
that even now I am amazed
        that I was able to bear it. 


Blessed be our Lord, 
       who has so effectually helped me!


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[357] Philip. a SS. Trinitate, Theolog. Mystic.
          par. 2, tr. iii. disc. iv. art. v.: 


         "Tres sunt modi divinæ locutionis;
         completur enim divina locutio 
            vel verbis successivis, 
            vel verbis formalibus, 
            vel verbis substantialibus. 
          Completur verbis successivis cum 
           anima in semetipsa multum collecta 
           quosdam discursus internos de Deo 
           vel de aliis divina format directione; 
           hujusmodi quippe discursus, 
           quamvis ab ipsa sibi formati, 
           a Deo tamen dirigente procedunt. 
         Completur verbis formalibus cum 
           anima vel in se collecta, 
            vel aliis occupata, percipit quædam 
            verba formaliter ac distincte divinitus 
            expressa, ad quorum formationem 
            anima passive penitus se habet.    
         Completur verbis substantialibus cum 
           anima vel in se collecta, vel etiam 
           distracta, percipit quædam verba viva 
           et efficacia, divinitus ad se directa, 
           quæ virtutem aut substantialem 
            effectum per ipsa significatum fortiter 
            ac infallibiliter causant." 


           See also St. John of the Cross, 
            Ascent of Mount Carmel, b. ii. 
           ch. xxviii. and the following, p. 188.

[358] From 1555 to 1557, 
           when the Saint was advised by 
           St. Francis de Borja
            to make no further resistance (Bouix).


[359] See [294]ch. xxvii. § 4.


[360] [295] § 4.


[361] [296] § 5.


[362] The doctrine here laid down 
           is not that of the second water, [297]
           chs. xiv. and [298]xv.,


           but that of the third, [299]
           ch. xvi. 


           The Saint herself speaks doubtfully;
            and as she had but little time for 
           writing, she could not correct 
            nor read again what she had written 
             (De la Fuente).


[363] [300] § 6.


[364] [301] § 2.


[365] [302]Ch. vii. § 12.


[366] [303]Ch. xxviii. § 6, 
           [304]Ch. xxx. § 10.


[367] [305]Ch. vii.  § 11.


[368] [306]Ch. iv.  § 6, 
           [307]Ch. v.    § 14.


[369] It was the church of the Jesuits 
           (Bouix).


[370] See Inner Fortress, vi. 3,  § 5.


[371] St. Matt. viii. 26; 
          "Imperavit ventis et mari, et facta est
            tranquillitas magna."


[372] [308]Ch. xxxi.  § 2.


[373] St. John of the Cross, 
          [309]Spiritual Canticle, st. 24, p. 128,
           Eng. trans.


[374] St. Matt. x. 26, 28; 
           "Ne ergo timueritis eos, . . . 
             sed potius timete Eum."


[375] St. John viii. 44: 
          "Mendax est, et pater ejus."


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